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Wed Oct 7, 2009, 7:53 PM
I do apologize for the emo-tastic journal entry before. I keep telling myself that I need to NOT update stuff at night because the sun has set and my melatonin levels are low, hence I'm tired and not nearly as positive and perky as usual. XD The end.

Oh...and I thought that I might note that...

I FINALLY GOT MY ITSUKI WIG IN! X3 Itsuki as in... Yu Yu Hakusho Itsuki. I'm cosplaying him for the next convention that I go to--which should be Izumi-con unless things go differently. I am SO excited! ^___^

And yeah. That's it. o_O; The end?

-Madam Airlock-

I've got nothing left...

Mon Oct 5, 2009, 9:46 PM
There are just sometimes when I feel like that I have nothing left to give. I try and I try. When I feel that I'm doing something wrong, I change it. At least... I think that I do. I'm not perfect, nor do I strive to be...

Maybe I'm reading too much into this. Maybe I'm a people pleaser and maybe I need to stop. I know that being someone like that never works. Ever. But at the same time, am I really that?

It just feels as though I get walked on wherever I go by at least one person. Someone with a dominating personality overshadows me or someone with personal insecurities drag me down to the ground.

I just can't win. It frustrating and I hate it. I hate this feeling. I hate the emptiness. I hate defeat. I'm so tired of getting close to people and then realizing too late that it was a mistake. A huge mistake. I hate it. I've often wondered if I should just go at life alone; that maybe I would be better off.

Then, I know that secluding myself is also a mistake. One that I resolved never to make again. I guess that sometimes love or companionship is worth the pain. I would have never met some of the wonderful people that I know now by being cold and unfeeling.

Cold and unfeeling... No. That isn't who I am, nor is it who I represent.

I'm just... weary. It hurts more than words can describe.

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This song by Celine Dion sums it all up.

I Got Nothin' Left
Celine Dion

Anybody ever tell you that you're not whole
A hollow shell of man without a soul
Never ever felt your warmth cause you're always cold
Only thing that makes sense is letting go

Anybody ever tell you that you've got nerve
Treatin' my love like just another word
Tired of giving love to you that you don't deserve
So this is one way of saying it's over

Cause I got nothing left
I got nothing left
I got nothing left
I gave you my best
And you treated it worthless
So I got nothing left

Anybody ever tell you that you're gonna learn
Trust and respect are two things you must earn
When it came to lovin' me you just weren't concerned
You never gave a damn so I guess now it's my turn

Cause I got nothing left
I got nothing left
I got nothing left
I gave you my best
And you treated it worthless
So I got nothing left

So done with you
Maybe we're through
So done with you

Cause I got nothing left
I got nothing left
I got nothing left
I got nothing left
I got nothing left
I gave you my best
And you treated it worthless
So I got nothing left


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Sorry for the emo-tyme rant. ._. I just needed to get that off of my chest.

-Madam Airlock

On behalf of my dying brain...

Mon Jul 20, 2009, 7:56 PM
Dear Yu Yu Hakusho,

I have been reading your manga off and on for a week straight and I would appreciate the following. Please stop killing my brain with:

-Your extremely addicting storyline.
-Your very large demon monsters who haunt my waking hours. *shudders* Toguro...
-Your pretty bishounen who I can't help but stare at in awe. *sparkles* ... Kurama... Itsuki...x_x
-Your adorable friendship themes.
-Your never-ending battle plot...
-Your infectious main protagonist... =\

It hurts. No really. It hurts bad. Espeically Yuusuke's idiotic dorkyness that I can't help but adore.

Stop it.

No love,

-Me

P.S. ;__; NEVER STOP! <3

  • Listening to: Celtic
  • Reading: YYH manga
  • Watching: The weather... x_x
  • Playing: Role playing! =D
  • Drinking: H2O

Wow.

Fri Mar 20, 2009, 10:28 PM
The end, right? No more BSG? But it was frakking amazing! I was astounded by how everything tied in from the past and aided the ending. It was perfect. Absolutely perfect. What an astounding series that I had the fortune of coming across.

I really love how everything in that show had some sort of meaning and it all began with Hera. I can't imagine what the show would have been like without her.

And Kara... wow. She really was an angel--in all aspects of the word. I was a little sad when she vanished, but it was good to know that she felt accomplished.

Baltar and Caprica ended up being just... amazing. I was so proud of Baltar because he stood up for what was right and did something that didn't revolve around him. It ended up saving them all. <3 I frakking love Baltar. Helo was right to save him in the miniseries. <3

And finally... Adama and Roslin. I was extremely sad, but I knew that it was coming and it really couldn't have ended better. It was bittersweet, but I was glad that Roslin at least made it to earth and saw how beautiful it was.

I was sobbing like a little girl when it was all over. <3 Way to go Eike and Moore. You have successfully stolen my heart again.

*sigh* ... Well... Now what? XD

-Madam Airlock-

Plot-twist time~

Fri Feb 27, 2009, 9:17 PM
Someone to Watch Over Me definitely left me speechless. The turn of events happened so quickly that I didn't even have time to think.

First off, I was perfectly content with Roslin and the other cylon's decision over trying and executing Boomer. She was a danger back when she was apart of the fleet, a danger to the cylons, and she proved to be a danger this time around too. Boomer's become ruthless. She beat up Athena, posed as her when Helo came around, took Hera and completely betrayed Tyrol in the end. Roslin was right--she did use the Chief's emotions against him and it really cost him in the end.

We also see more of Starbuck's past and her feelings toward her father. I liked the idea that she used to play the piano to make her father proud. It gives her character a lot more depth and really explains a lot about her. Before this, we already knew about how abusive and demanding her mother was, but her father was still a bit of a mystery. She was angry at her father for leaving and never coming back, but was able to let go of that anger and forgive him in the end. I liked the scene of her listening to her father's music while lying beside Anders. You could see that she had a new meaning and a sense of closure with her father. Starbuck is really an amazing character.

Hera. I can't express how much I love that little child. I had a feeling that Hera's 'drawing' was going to be significant... that kid doesn't always draw just for fun. She's so deep for a kid and that's why I love her. It amazes me what the cylon-human hybrids are capable of.

So... Is Laura Roslin dead or is she alive? It's really hard to tell at this point. They dropped it completely at the very end after she fell to the ground. I could be pessimistic, but she looked terrible in the few scenes that she was in. She seemed disconnected, frail, and tired. I know that she's been that way for the past several episodes, but it seemed as though it doubled in this episode.

Her connection with Hera, however, didn't seem to break. I wonder... if her being injected with Hera's blood when she was dying of cancer the first time has anything to do with it. And...maybe it always had and I just missed it a long time ago. XD Whatever the case, it's questionable. I like the link the link that Roslin has with Hera.

However, I have come to terms that Roslin is probably dead and I fear for Adama's sanity and decision-making. The old man is holding onto his final strings... Then again, so are so many others. The end of this series isn't holding promise to turn out well.

Until next week...

-Madam Airlock-

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